Monday, March 9, 2009
So, I haven't posted in a while. Since my last post, I feel as though I've made a little bit of improvement with this whole PPD and anxiety.
The depression is not so much as issue, as the anxiety is.
The anxiety about being home alone with Keelyn is my main issue. Fortunately, I'm only home alone with her for 2 full days/week. However, these 2 days feel like an eternity and cause me so much anxiety. After these full days alone with her, I often find myself needing to take off work while the baby is at Nan's just so I can "recover" from the day alone with the baby.....because I feel so drained.
The weather has been really nice here the past couple of days, and the sun and warm temps have really helped me feel better in the depression aspect. I thank God for the wonderful blessing of this warm weather.
All in all I feel like I am managing my PPD and anxiety better - however, I still do not feel 100% like myself.
I keep praying that I will feel "normal" again. I just really feel as though time is the main thing to help me here.
Thanks for reading!